"Date him. And have Schizophrenic sex with him!"

I am sitting on the phone with one of my best friends right now, and everything just feels completely at peace.

I don't even want to think about what I just did to myself... Today I let the most unhealthy thing back into my life. I gave it a big wide open door and said 'come on in.' I even passed it a beer from the fridge and said turned on the TV to keep it comfortable. I sometimes think I need help form my self destruction.

Even so, I love my life. I love my friends. I love talking in caps lock to random people, and giggling with others.

I met someone semi-recently who is literally my polar opposite. He's got a mohawk. Leather jacket. Chains. And he's schizophrenic. Even so, he is seriously one of the most amazing people I've ever met. He's so easy to talk to, and I just really adore him. How do I take the next step? Oh why can't you respond, blogspot? WHY CAN'T YOU RESPOND!? I don't think I use blogspot the way it's intended, by the way. Just saying. It's more of a journal that's open for anybody to read then a blog. Whatever. I am good with that if you are.

Team Jacob, ftw.

So, this blog is going to be all about my experience watching the movie "New Moon". Going in, I expected nothing but complete crap, And my expectations were lived up to. But seriously, seriously? Some of the things that happened just annoyed the hell out of me.

I hate that everybody is so amazed with Edward and Bella's relationship. I am fed up of it. They have nothing but an abusive relationship. It's unhealthy, and it is nowhere close to true love. Jacob? Jacob breaks rules just to be with Bella and keep Bella safe. WEREWOLFS>VAMPIRES.

That's one thing. But another thing? Special effects... With all the money that was spent on this movie, you'd think that they would be better. But no. That werewolf looked like they were trying to be animated. Maybe it's because the movies are so rushed, but seriously? Put some effort in.

Also, Cedric wins over Edward. Robert Pattinson, you've fallen so much.

That's honestly all I had to say today. :/ Rawr. I wish I had people that read these. It'd keep me infinitely more sane knowing people cared.

Blogs are awkward.

You know, this is odd. Talking at the computer. Talking at people in general. Not that many people will be reading this. I feel rather awkward, actually. Then again I am an awkward person, so that's nothing new.

So, is this like a diary? One would think that with all the blogs I've read I would know what to do. Well, I guess I will just talk until I feel like hitting the 'publish post'.

Have you ever wanted to turn into traffic? Like, just randomly drive your car onto the opposite side of the road? Because I was thinking that'd be kind of fun one morning. And It wasn't really because I wanted to die or anything-- there are far easier and more definite ways of doing that-- but I just wanted to do it to get that rush. I never seem to be utterly thrilled. And I felt like for just that small second-- that small second before my bumper would smash that far overpriced Toyota Camry on the opposite side of the road-- I would get that feeling.

Of course, I would never do that. I enjoy living far too much, and even if a head-on collision didn't kill me, I am sure I would be dead when my parents found out what happened. People have said that I might just be an adrenaline junky who hasn't had enough of a rush yet. That could be it. I could just be a bit insane, too.

So, how was that for a first post? Yeah, you're like "what a psycho" right? That's okay. I am not usually that sadistic. Sadistic? Is that the right word? I don't think so. Well, anyways... Time for my daily dose of Youtube. Feedback? Feedback from the person who stumbled upon my page? Please?